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Sunday, at exactly 5.24pm, cute Kon-tot spoke with a voice that thundered inside the walls of Sutherland, well, just behind the Reception.
you look at me. you look amused. giggly. you look like you're itching to grab me and cuddle me. i know my cuteness brings a different kind of elation to people. it's cool because it makes me feel invisible. i am there but i am not really there. you only see my cuteness but not my sorrow. you don't know that the blood that flows through my veins is cursed. i am cursed to be beautiful and i have to live with it for the rest of my life. my only consolation is at least unlike other people, i need not pretend to look happy and cute so that no one would bother to ask or worry about me. i dont have to pretend because well, i already look happy...and cute.
it's settled now. i am cute but i am also strong. who says no one can be cute and strong at the same time. i am strong and i can be your hero. it's sad though because i can save other people but i can never save myself. so many times i feel like the earth will open and swallow me. maybe it's better that way that the ground will break and i'll just disappear from the face of the earth. i guess that's the only way to stop from hurting.
~H
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[08 Jun 2006|06:01pm] |
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this should give you a clue of the next trigun_donut writer, who's currently in training right now, reading stainless longannisa, learning portugese, and peeping at ladies' comfort rooms, courtesy of markus. i'll be leaving the journal to him for a month. that is, if he survives the rigorous training. i'm swamped with work, random dvds, and my migration papers. will be back, hopefully.
( I'd rather be Ken-chan )
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lay-out in progress
somehow i got the codes all wrong.
or the codes i've copied are all wrong.
whatever.
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[22 Mar 2006|03:09am] |
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Looking back, I would have done something drastic without watching akazukin chacha every afternoon. It was my therapy in high school. It kept me sane. I don't know why, it just did. I was a very troubled, suicidal, depressed kid when I was in high school, and at some instances I'd cry in the middle of episodes. Wala lang. Share ko lang.
Someone from YouTube uploaded some episodes, and gave a link for torrent downloads. Which is pretty useless, because my PC broke down. But at least I know where to go when I'm sad.
Anyway, I guess won't be updating this livejournal much because...I got another one. ^__^
PS. Thanks for the book. =D
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[04 Mar 2006|02:21am] |
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aha! you! you k&m supporter! you are looking for updates! you are looking for news! you shall get no substantial information from this journal! thanks for answering the johari window thingy anyway, sis.
anyway, the recent visit to the hospital made me realise i need to have a healthier lifestyle.
my pc broke down and i've not written for days. you might be surprised to see me in awesome miss muppet curls one day, wearing a pink shirt that says, GINILING FESTIVAL NAKAMAMATAY.
hey, i like that shirt.
meron bang kiko machine (aka "we are the andy warhol of pop music") shirts?
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Arena (known to self and others) independent, sentimental | Blind Spot (known only to others) cheerful, loving, trustworthy, warm | Façade (known only to self) complex, reflective, sensible, silly | Unknown (known to nobody) able, accepting, adaptable, bold, brave, calm, caring, clever, confident, dependable, dignified, energetic, extroverted, friendly, giving, happy, helpful, idealistic, ingenious, intelligent, introverted, kind, knowledgable, logical, mature, modest, nervous, observant, organised, patient, powerful, proud, quiet, relaxed, religious, responsive, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, shy, spontaneous, sympathetic, tense, wise, witty |
CONTRIBUTE! Click here. It won't take a minute, promise.
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[09 Feb 2006|07:44pm] |
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Just got a slot for our company's HR Internship Program. HR Intern sounds sophisticated, but I digress. We handle the applicants; I've been doing phone screenings and initial interviews for the past few days. After all, *we* did talk about a change of career. I'll be working straight for a month and a half - mornings on the recuitment floor, and afternoons with PayPal UK. There are a lot of things to write about, but I simply do not have the time. Stress is dealing with me nicely.
...and I'm currently watching the Grammys. Madonna has turned into Pia Moran. ;_;
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[27 Jan 2006|01:01am] |
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Back from Puerto Galera. I'm preparing my photobucket for the biggest uploading event this year, so I was sorting out pictures until I came across these.
( Marynel and Ria )
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[19 Jan 2006|02:18am] |
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I've read a lot of good livejournal entries last week. One of them was aphazia's entry on childhood books. When I was young I used to bring a dog-eared copy of James and the Giant Peach almost everywhere I go. It was the first real book I owned -- Ate Mette (mimm)gave it to me on my 8th birthday. I also remember reading Ate Mette's Like Water For Chocolate by Laura Esquivel. Ate Mette asked my Mom if it was okay to let me read it, and my Mom, who is always strict about the books I read (and the main reason why I stash most of my books on secret places), actually gave her consent.
89&()*^)*^&*^&*_)()(
My Mom loved books. I was homeschooled for two years, and part of her curriculum includes going to the library to borrow five books per child to read per week. There was this big library at Makati called the Makati Union Church Library. We'd go there every Thursday. The whole place was overwhelming, I can never forget the smell of books, and the fact that there was so much to read, to digest. chastity_rowan had written an entry about The Adventures of Tintin, and the library has most of the Tintin books. The first one I've ever read was The Seven Crystal Balls. I had a huge crush on Captain Haddock back then. Just because. And Bianca Castafiore is a flirt. XP
I could go on, but I'd rather not.
***
I've already read bad reviews about the Memoirs of a Geisha movie. I loved the book. Zhang Ziyi shone in Wong Kar-Wai's 2046, but the fact that she's not japanese remains. Brian argued that there are no popular/mainstream japanese actresses, but still. We'll see.
Which brings me to...EIGA SAI 2006! This year features J-Teen Movies, so tara let's wallow in teen angst! This years' selection includes Waterboys, which created a big splosh last year. I'll be catching the Wednesday and Thursday flicks at the Film Center. If I'm lucky enough I could drag a friend or two. :D
( Schedules )
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[09 Jan 2006|09:27pm] |
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A lot of my officemates were apalled when friendster was blocked by the server. Friendster, the online equivalent of a social life. In the meantime, Yahoo! was available, so that meant some sites werestill allowed. I was contented with the fact that I can open my Livejournal and Blurty. Hmm.
I have left most of the week undocumented. Surprise. My Starbucks Planner had some blank January pages, finally, and my Firma scrapbook needs a new entry. I spend my time at home sleeping, but my Mom's happy -- at least I go home.
Meanwhile, to pass my lunchtime, I read old livejournal entries. Some of them made me cringe, including the December 3 Mush. I go aieeeee! and remembered the time when Marisue used to braid my hair -- it was that embarassing. But Raych made me swear I wasn't going to delete the entry, so. -_-
Also, I have read about the time when Ada, Che, Marynel and I used to spend afternoons at @riks, eat rice-in-a-box and iced tea, and poke ourseleves while watching Card Captor Sakura. You miss the times when you were idle most of the time.
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[31 Dec 2005|04:53pm] |
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two weeks ago, i filed a three day leave. it's unusual to be offered a leave since i've only started last october, but i grabbed the chance anyway because i wanted some time to look back, contemplate, and have my very own Bleach marathon. =D
schoolgirl tendencies
my brother went to watch mulawin with some of his friends, so i had to tag along and play financier and referee. matthew knew most of the mulawin - encantadia - etheria plot, but more than that he was a friend of the mulawins, believe it or not. i didn't feel like watching a movie that day, so i tinkered with YouTube at net@pia. YouTube had a lot of videos you can watch, including most of the Back Dorm Boys (also known as the 2 chinese boys) videos Marynel coerced me to see. Also, the video of E-Jan Do You Feel Like I Feel? will make you go hmmm. It gave me such a fit of giggles I decided to post it on my friendster account, just for the week. For the video, weird glances and the Moshimo Kono Sekai song, Hunter X Hunter: Greed Island Final is my favorite anime this year. ~_^
fazoli's
had dinner with marynel at eastwood, the most happening place to be. eastwood is unchartered territory, and i've only been there twice. i thought that could change things, but marynel was still late. her mom gave me aromatherapy oils with tags like baby, angel, peppermint. loved the peppermint. we decided to dine at fazoli's, a hipper, better version of sbarro's (because we've sworn off sbarros for 2006). the italian chicken was fantastic, and there were guys with frilly baskets filled with bread sticks. i enjoyed it a lot. i've butchered snippets of her life for writing material several times, she lurks most of the time and reacts on Bella Flores comments, but Marynel is one of the reasons why 2005 is a good year. i love having a bestfriend who goes, "bakit kelangan akbayan ni leorio si kurapika, hmmm?"
happiness at fazoli's
exodus
to compensate for watching foreign films and japanese animation for the whole year, i watched exodus: tales from the enchanted kingdom. also, i wanted to see if the rumors were true: if you buy one exodus ticket, you get one ride-all-you-can enchanted kingdom ticket, which was worth 500 bucks. everything was planned at the last minute: raych and i were thinking of dinner. paolo was free and wants to return the harry potter book, and kuya rhanz got hold of the plan and arrived at powerbooks 30 minutes early.
(to be continued)
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[23 Dec 2005|01:39pm] |
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I was surprised when Tita Gels gave me an envelope labeled '13th Month Pay -- Computer Teacher'. It wasn't much, but it was enough for my Sunday caffeine fix. More than enough, actually, because I also used the money to watch Peter Jackson's King Kong with Kemi, Buk and my brother. I miss my students.
Peter Jackson makes long, gripping, edge-of-your-seat movies. Worth your money. We were a little late because we searched the whole mall for KFC Fun Shots and Frosties. Unfortunately, the mall was packed and we decided to ditch the whole idea of eating something not from the popcorn stand. The chinese guy died. Aaaw, that was sad.
Now that I have my dialup connection again, I totally forgot about what I wanted to write. After re-watching Chobits I spent my time at the office's break room to watch back to back episodes of CSI, CSI: New York and CSI: Miami. Hey, it's better than Numb3rs. I got my Bleach episodes and GTO Live! Yay!
Because I'm easy to please...my wistlist.
1. A Starbucks Planner (or 8 stickers.) I got one already! Yay!
2. A Bella Flores vintage shirt. Dapat yung kakasha.
3. A Snowglobe I can display on my office desk, next to my Smints (A Smint will also do -- either Spearmint or Peppermint.)
4. A lava lamp.
5. Net Nanny or Lemonade Tycoon 2 Installer
6. The Guldo action figure or any Ginyu Forces member.
If you think my list is cheap, I have an optional, more ambitious list:
1. A Kiko Machine album (I dunno if it's available, but if it is -- yay.)
2. An i-Pod Nano. Any color will do.
3. A wristwatch
Or you can buy me something you think I need more than anything on my list. The thing is, I don't really know what I need. I think I've got everything that I need and more (except for the iPod), but I'm always wrong.
I'm off to Greenhills today to buy some installers. I've a lunch date with Peggy and JM. Then I head to Kitchen for the team building chumenelin. Now that I think about it, huwaw my whole week is loaded.
What does your handwriting say about YOU?
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[10 Dec 2005|03:18am] |
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I was trying to write about how annoying it is to wait for two hours for a jeep. Or how I wasn't able to phone home because we have no phone. Or how I hate taxicab rides. Instead I'm going to write about Bella Flores. Have you seen the new Eight O'Clock commercial? I don't know if it was new, since I rarely watch television; I just saw it the other day. Bella Flores was in it. She wanted people to try the mango juice she made. I don't know why, it made me gigglish. When I was young I was terribly scared of Bella Flores. She was the best contrabida there is. Sure, Celia Rodriguez was also contrabida material, but Bella Flores was classic. When she's angry, she looks as though she can swallow you whole. You actually feel for the protagonists: she looks as if she was about to beat the crap out of them.
Now you're older and you know she's acting, it hits you. She's very, very good. I have only seen her in contrabida roles; way back, my Mom says she was the prettiest teen star there is (not counting Gloria Romero). Aaaw, and let me just say, you won't find a lot of information about her online.
If you've caught on, then buy me the vintage Bella Flores shirt at Sari Sari. Heehee.
2:44 am
Marynel: Bakit andiyan ka pa?
Me: Wala akong masakyang jeep eh, nuba. Ikaw kaya 10 ang pasok mo.
Marynel: Pauwi na nga ako (I'm sure!)
Me: Hanap mo nga ako ng picture ni Bella Flores bago ka umuwi.
Marynel: NUBA SIS.
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[07 Dec 2005|02:33am] |
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I've written an unusually long post when the PC started acting funny and began to restart. I panicked. The old man who runs the rental told me to save my work on a notepad first. It was the second time the PC died on me? Why? I have no idea. I miss my PC.
Our phone died for good. Heard that it was permanently disconnected and they can't restore it back because they need to receive a faxed document from the account holder, Tita Lolit. Months ago, I have called the phone company requesting them to change it under my name. Apparently they didn't and now I'm in a fix. It's been three months since it died. The first week I went totally berserk. I'm not as berserk as I was because my work's getting me busy. I work from 4pm to 1am, and it could've been better if I have my dial-up connection waiting for me at home, is that so much to ask?
Meanwhile, to compensate for my lack of internet connection I'm re-watching Chobits because I can relate to a certain extent. I've finally finished the Rurouni Kenshin prequel, and I didn't like it much. I bought the discs right after I resigned. I found the magical tiangge Kirk was telling me about, smack in the middle of Metropolis. He bought his Greed Island collection there. Also bought the Fushigi Yuugi OAV, but I chucked it out because the subtitles were wrong and the grammar was all garbled. When Chichiri was introduced as Susuli, I gave up. My brother loved the RK prequel though. He says it's better than the TV
series. Nah.
Winston finally got a 'normal' job. He's working at Quezon City, but he's online most of the time, leaving automated she's away messages while I'm gone. He says the work is hard but I know he's adjusting (in fact he's sending me YM messages while I'm typing this post). He can do it. Mariel Rodriguez always greets Raych on PBB Up Late, since Raych made the Mariel Rodriguez shrine. Naks, connivance ito! We're planning a heist at Red Box next week. Marynel and Kirk's okay. Paolo's going to return my HP6 book. I'm planning to give him Bleach episodes (or GTO Live) as a thank you slash christmas gift for the Kimi Go Nozumu Eien experience.
My journal is appearing on search engines, according to anonymous comments, when you type in Maskman mp3. I'd love to send them the mp3s, but I couldn't. I've also tried to check if my journal comes up, but it doesn't. I used Google. I have no idea which search engine they are using. Anyway, it's nice knowing somebody still wants the mp3s.
It's nice seeing Brian again. It's nice to meet someone who has known you when you were still a quirky, zit-filled, hormone raging teenager. I don't know, it just does. They were around for you when you were all messed up, and now that you're messed up still (hehe), and older, they're still there. I've written about this before, but Makati brings a lot of those angst filled Makati memories. Even better, the Joegrad memories that I had the other day. The grafittis that filled the Makati walls (the non-Ayala ones anyway) that said, in bold letters, GAGO KA JOEGRAD. We wondered. Who is Joegrad, and why is he gago? We tried asking a jeepney driver once, but he flew on a rage upon hearing the name. Since then everytime I hear Joegrad my mind associates it with gago. I had this weird sense of responsibility to know who Joegrad is. Now I know -- Joegrad is an actor who plays contrabida roles and who bullies Makati jeepney drivers to pay him a certain percentage of their money. Joegrad memories aside, I missed Makati.
I love my workstation. I'm sitting next to three gays and one girl gay (in the vernacular, babaeng bakla). I don't have a gaydar, but I know the guy next to me is gay because he always have his pressed powder with him and he tells me the names of all the cute guys who pass by. The girl on my right has the hots for Brian and always gets the impulse to hug him everytime he does floorwalks. JM used to be my gaydar. I didn't know he was gay until he admitted it. He lives with his partner Mac, and we got along really well. He does the recognizing for me.
"Erik Santos?"
"Gay."
"Piolo Pascual?"
"Gay."
"Uma?"
"Flamingly gay."
"Franco (the IT guy)?"
"Closet gay."
And we'd laugh, because we didn't like Franco much, and he tries so hard to hide it. I miss JM. He's one of the brightest pals I ever had. He's now a team leader, and keeps me up-to-date with all the latest CLG buzz.
Now you know this plug is coming! I loved this movie when it was shown in UP -- now that it's being released mainstream, watchit watchit watchit. ANG PAGDADALAGA NI MAXIMO OLIVEROS (The Blossoming of Maximo Oliveros). Thus ends my post.
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| my hikari sentai maskman collection is complete! |
[17 Nov 2005|03:46pm] |
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Yes! I've got the Maskman opening and closing theme, both by Hironobu Kageyama. I even got the infamous concert version from the same artist. Now...
the Maskman opening and closing theme in tagalog! This version was sung by...VIC SOTTO! and because I'm feeling nifty today, I'll share it. MAHAHAHA.
Click me, Ispiritista!
will edit later...thanks sis.
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[16 Nov 2005|03:34pm] |
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I have no idea how this happened, but by Monday I realized I already have a list of people who are expecting me to go with them and see Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.
1. Raych
2. Marynel, Che and Leck
3. Kirk
4. My brother Matthew and Alyssa
5. Kenneth and Ina
6. JM, Mac and Peggy
I got text messages, yahoo buzzes and calls reminding me of my engagements. I can't understand it. I think this is not because I'm interesting to be with, gimme a break. Probably it's the fact that I'm always available. Dang. Isn't the single life wonderful, or what?
The first three groups I could squeeze in one movie, but my brother already has reservations tonight at SMB and Tita Aloy already has the tickets for Saturday. ARGH...
ARGH!
ARGH.
The best solution is to not watch it with anyone. I'm tempted. Really.
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Okay, I admit it. I watch Pinoy Big Brother. Occassionally, okay. Personality wise, it's pretty obvious I'd pick Franzen as my bet. The guy who picks his nose in front of the camera, cracks the most annoying jokes and makes all the housemates cringe -- perfect. Recently I've come to realize that he doesn't need any help anymore -- he's leading the whole pack. This week I heard he's about to be evicted due to technicalities. Aaaw. Maybe there's truth in reality tv, after all.
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1. The first thing I should do when I get my first salary: buy eyeglasses. I never realized I had any problem with my eyes until the pre-employment check-up. The doctor told me to get one. I shrugged. "My eyes are just tired, that's all." I have utmost faith with my eyes. A few days later I found out I couldn't read subtitles anymore, or read ads several feet away. It's terrible. Mom says it's hereditary. I'm not sure. I've always been dependent on my eyes I tend to abuse them.
2. I am extremely bored. Most of the time we just hang around at the office and watch movies. I'm too pooped when I get home at about midnight: the only thing I could bring myself to do is go online, mainly to download or share mp3s. I love my weird collection.
3. I've not talked to Marynel for two days now, and it feels weird not to talk to her. Or share mp3s. Or have those crazy conversations. She's either playing Ragnarok or offline after midnight. Plus, I need to tell her I wasn't able to get movie reservations for Friday night. We need to devise another plan! We need our dose of fancandy!
4. There are only two people concerned with my wardrobe: my fashionista sister Diane, and Tita Lyn. Their fashion sense never fails me. When Tita Lyn heard of the dress code and how I've given up looking for blouses, she brought me to a place that never crossed my mind: Woman, The Store. We spent the whole Saturday shopping with Jonna. Shopping! It's a chore I never enjoyed, but I'm utterly thankful -- I'm no fashion eyesore anymore. What, with the funky pieces, and my pairs of shoes? I suppose it's also public service for the Makati employees, so yay.
5. Friday night at Gilligan's Island: we get smashed, big time.
6. Raych (quiteawhile) got to ogle Sam Milby on Monday's Pinoy Big Brother Up Late. Aaaw. I'm sorry I couldn't come, Raych, but you had fun, I can tell. ~_^
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